Fri
Aug
28
dear pain
this is the first time that i can say to myself with absolute certainty ‘this is a problem’
i haven’t realized until recently how you notice just how beautiful every little thing in life is while dealing with pain. i suspect it’s the brain doing everything it can to distract itself from the feeling and the rational. this will not beat me but i cannot say i will beat it.
having to walk with a cane is painful to my pride but allowed me to say ’ okay, this is how things are now and they aren’t changing; get out now or smile and take it; i’m all in, i will not ask why me but rather when that question may rise I will ask ‘why not.’
i will stay positive and i will not look at the fear I feel in the eye; that is cancer to the soul.
